June 05, 2003 - 10:20 a.m.
I always find a reason to complain. Wether it's about lack of money, something my husband didn't do or how I wish we had not moved into the house we live in at the moment. But last night I realized something. I was making dinner (chili-mac, real fancy, eh?) and we were getting ready to watch "Beyond Belief: Fact or Fiction" on the Sci-Fi channel. It was then that I thought to myself..."You know, I'm content with my life. Yes, I'd like to have another child, but beyond that, there's nothing more that I absolutely have to have. It would be nice to have more money, but we make it on what we have now, and more money will come in time anyway. I have a husband that loves me, I mean really loves me. Wants to spend forever with me. Not to mention, he is a damn good father. Given my past history with Sperm Donor, that in itself is worth being ecstatic about."
I need to quit bitching so much. I'm lucky, and I need to realize that.
So, as far as I know, I'm not pregnant yet. So, I'm doing something that will surely get me that way. I'm going to sell Caleb's baby clothes. I already have a lady that's interested in buying anything for the summer that I have in 2T/24 Mo. so that's cool. I just need to figure out what I'm going to ask for them. And I need to take pictures of them, too. Hopefully doing this will give me some spending money for when my sister comes to visit in July. We're planning on going to Six Flags in Texas as well as the Dallas Zoo while she's here, and not that I wouldn't be grateful for it, but I don't want her to have to pay for me because I'm broke. Anyway, like I said, I need to go take pictures of the @T/24 Mo. clothes. Perhaps another entry later if I can think of something to say.
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